It's 5am, I was heading to bed but Nikki just called and fucked that up for me SO I AM FEELING THOUGHTFUL.

Derp aside, thinking about it... I think it would have been myself. That counts, right?

I mean, I don't say it to sound self-centered or egotistical or anything, like "Oh I'm the only person who would deserve such a thing". It's more... I think there were times I really needed to hear it, and not from anyone else, but 'me' in general.

When I was younger (and even most days now), I was never really blessed with the confidence to look myself in the mirror and just honestly, truly like what I saw. I felt ugly, I felt awkward, I felt hopeless, and I never had faith in myself. Having come so far now, even if I do have my bumps and wrinkles, if I had the chance, I'd probably want to give my past!self that comfort, too.

To look myself in the eye and honestly say (and hear?) "I love you for who you are, and you shouldn't ever change." Looking back, I think I deserved it. Needed it.

As for I'm Sorry... I really couldn't pick just one person. I have so many mistakes, and even if I did apologize for them, with my last breaths I would want to let everyone I have ever wronged, cheated, made fun of know that I never really meant it. That if I could, I'd take it back.

I know it wouldn't fix anything, but as I deserved that final comfort of 'I Love You', they'd deserve an 'I'm Sorry', for what it's worth.



I feel like such a sappy derp now. DON'T MIND ME. B[ /thuds to the van

Probably a lot of things, but one in specific. Degrassi. ;_; My sister used to watch it all the time and I'd scoff and be like 'that show is retarded', you know. And well, eventually it grew on me. Now it's a guilty pleasure.

I admittedly don't care much for the new characters, story-lines, or seasons in general, but some of the older seasons are great. Plus, Paige and Alex were a cute couple. ;_____; Like the only lesbian couple I can think of and pretty much the only couple that grew on me in the show, rofl.

And I'm not the only one in the house who suffers from this. My dad sits there and bitches about how dumb it is and how dumb the characters are, but he totally loves that show too LMAO. He knows all the characters and story lines and whenever he pops in and we're watching it he's like "Wasn't _______ dating _______?" Oh dad. 8'|

But enough about Canadian Teen Soap Operas.

In other news, my favorite chair is breaking. ;_; I don't know why, but I love this computer chair but good lord it's practically falling apart. The left arm rest is popping out, the back is falling off, the whole thing is rickety and wobbles, lmao. Soon, my mom will be getting us a new chair and I'll most likely hate it. No chair will ever be the same. ;_;

This one, it's so easy to get comfortable in (not AS much as before, considering I don't want to take the risk of getting too settled and having the damn thing break apart, but still comfortable). She's been going on and on about how she wants those nice, simple, black office chairs. You know, with the flat seat and back that promotes SITTING UP STRAIGHT.

And well. I hate those chairs, I just can't get comfortable in them. :T This one reclines, spins, has armrests, a nice wide seat.

tl;dr: I really hope my damn chair holds out for a while. B| This is very distressing to me don't even front.

Since I'm on the kick of posting a real update and talking about myself, let's see what else.

( FANDOM FAGGOTRY UNDER CUT. )

I think I'm done here. ENJOY YOUR ACTUAL UPDATE they come once in a blue moon from me. 8( Rofl.

Want to play gamecube
Family is using TV
I suck at haikus


Fff haikus were never my thing.


Edit: B|a

THE DOOR. >B|

Her name was Kaycie, and she was actually the one who introduced me to Livejournal. Actually, I think she originally introduced me to Deadjournal, and then eventually I made the switch, but those details are all a blur as this was all many, many years ago. XD Either way, she was the one who dragged me to both.

As for the second part, sadly, I lost touch with her a few years ago. I'm sure we've both matured to the point we'd have little in common anymore, but sometimes I think it'd be cool to bump into her and 'catch up' or what have you. Old times sake, you know?



On a side-note, these Writer's Blocks seem pretty good lately, rofl. I meant to answer one the other day but I was too lazy to do it. 8')

Allow me to go organize my muse-box, and then I shall snag this character meme I've been seeing around. BRB.

Pick a character from here. I'll answer the following questions about them. Be warned that:

-I'm rusty on most.
-The sex questions more than likely won't apply to many.
-It may turn into crack. Scratch that, it probably will.

But. I'll give any of them a shot. ♥

01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Last sexual experience
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

As I was telling hamiltonia, it'd totally be Julio Pistachio.


She suggested Jupi for short. y/y? 8D

PINJAS.  XO

I sing a sad song just to turn it around.









....no, really.